Happy Birthday McKay

7 years ago today I did one of the hardest things I ever think I will do. I gave birth to a 1 lb baby boy who had already passed on. Mitch and I matured spirtually and emotionally quicker than we expected. We leaned on each other and got through something neither of us was prepared to do. We grew as a person and as a couple. I don't talk about Mckay that often, not because I am ashamed or embarassed but because it something that is special to me. Something that is so cherished and close to me that it is not easy to share. I think about Mckay everyday, I don't think about the boy he would have been, the personality he would have had, who he would of looked like, I think about the peace I felt when I held him in my arm and the beauty that surrounded him. I think about how perfect he was in his mothers arms. I think about an image that is forever frozen in my mind, savoring it and cherishing it until the day my Heavenly Father places him in my arms again. I love the fact that Mitch and I were chosen to be this perfect souls parents and pray that we will return to him again one day. For some reason this year his birthday hit me a little harder than the ones in the past. It may have be that it wasn't til 3 pm that I realized what exactly the day was. I was disappointed in myself that I forgot. This month has been crazy and I have had a lot going on but I feel at peace again. I know it will all work out for the best and I will again hold my perfect little baby boy again one day!